Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Butterflies and Blue Skies.....


A fresh new season for heart-strings to be pulled.... and for sunshines... she wishes that she could pull out as much happiness and smiles from the 'magic-box' that so promises anything... In the journey with the owner of the 'magic-box', he plants daises in this adamish girl's garden, sends gentle breezes and teases her mind with metaphors... How far can the magic-box go, she has seriously no idea... What is the owner of the 'magic'box' have up his sleeve that increases the curiousity of this adamish girl with every slightest second.. is it just great company, or does he have love in mind...?? Everything seems too undefined, the owner of the 'magic-box' is too unpredictable... camouflaging every word spoken with a layer of dignity... but it definately gives her a taste of butterflies and blue skies every day....

Not so FINAL afterall

Life isnt as complicated as it seems... but when you're with people who have brains like a malfunction switch then you're definately in for some serious problems... first a yes... then a no... then a yes again...then a no... whats this mean?? it means the person is super inconsiderate... selfish and have no sense of manners... So what if you have your own problem... there's always 2 choices... either a you deal with it or eat it up... well for some people that i know, have neither both... put on a mask... and then when they think its time to take it off, wah-la... chaos.. they get what they one coz orang tak sampai hati not to... and the other party... can only makan hati... hmm.. the case of fickle minded people should be whipped and fried in butter... they not only
cause mental damage...but social damage..

Monday, May 18, 2009

Final Desicion...

Amidst the hassle of preparing for exams... a problem arises concerning accommodation for the following semester... after much headaches and heartaches.... a final decision was made... 3 houses... 3 groups of us...but the best part is... we are going to be neighbours... a very brilliant thing... since practical involves everyone... transport is not a problem anymore.. i might get a room to myself if necessary...which is even better... i think its a bonus for me... and not forgetting... i wont be staying with my current roommate.... not to be bad... but i think its a good thing... saves me the social stresses i've be tolerating for the past 3 and a half years... its not that we're enemies... but i think, going separate ways would do us good... besides, she she has more luck on her side...and i dont have to worry anymore.... i do hope that this shifting will bring out the best in everyone and help us mature to another level of adulthood...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Inconsiderate Buggers....

Final semester.... 5 months away... News is out that all final year students have to stay outside the campus... how ridiculous can that get?? Its just a week away from the final exam.. and 2 weeks away from the semester break... what a perfect timing to inform us... What are they thinking la... What, a house can just drop from the sky with just a snap of the fingers.... How bout those students who dont have transport?? walk to college issit? or even better, cycle.. Raining how?? Home schooling issit.... Dummies laa these people.. At least let us be as we are till end of the year... then we wont bug them anymore... All last minute work... paling 'tau yen' wan... sigh...

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Cracks & Aches....

Damn... its been 6 hours of being awake... my body quivers...sweats and pops...
I'm aching everywhere... whats the matter with me... i wish there was a machine invented to lash me straight...loosening my joints and muscles... another 15 minutes passed... i wish this slow but subtle agony would finally cease...

One Step Closer.....

Its another step closer to being a teacher... and today, its teacher's day... another symbol of teachership for us... today... A special day for a group of special people to be remembered...to be appreciated...

Cheers to all these individuals that have made me who i am today... this post is a special shout out to all of you...

Mrs. Ng - Primary Class Teacher
Mrs. Gan - Primary Music Teacher

Mr. Lim (Garfield) - Secondary Add Maths Teacher
Ms. Lan (Po Chi Lam)- Secondary Moral teacher
En. Fadil - Secondary Bio teacher
Pn. Parimala - Form 3 Class Teacher
Mdm. Ong - Form 2 English Teacher
Mr. Thong - Headmaster
Ms. Koh - Best Secondary BM Teacher (role model)

Mr. Earnest - Best English Lecturer
Ms. Nik - Best Sporting Gamelan Lecturer
Ms. Hashima - Saluted BM lecturer
Mr. Khairi - Best Tutor
Mr. Mhd Noor - Phonology inspiring lecturer
Dr. Baha - Superb Penyelaras Kursus PISMK

A very big thank you to all of you... for being an inspiring model to me... Now, as i will take that step into the field...i hope to the imprinting of good values with me... to be shared...and passed on to the future generation... God bless.. and May His love be on all of these individuals who have given more than what is expected.... Happy Teacher's Day.... :)

Friday, May 15, 2009

Size does Matter....

It can be very depressing sometimes being tall and largely built...
Just imagine walking along the glass windows of clothes shops... gazing at that super cool dress... but then pauses, to also gaze at the reflected image off the glass.. the reflected image is twice the size of the awesomely cool looking dress... then without thinking twice.. walks off in disappointment... its not that i'm not happy with the way i'm made.. but a girl needs to look good... and here i'm stuck with my jeans and shirt... besides clothes, looking for shoes is also a heck of a task... i need to at least spend RM50 to get a nice decent pair of shoes... cant wear heels...*unless i would like to bump my head on the door post... i sometimes wonder whether i was born in the right country... I wouldnt have a problem overseas.. wouldnt be the odd one out.. shopping would be a breeze for me... height wouldnt be awkwardness... who knows, i'd just end up wearing pj's my entire life... lolz....

Thursday, May 14, 2009

My Current Favorite Songs...

"That's What You Get" by Paramore

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

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"Misery Business" by Paramore

I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
It's gonna just feel so...
It just feels so good.
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Dan Sebenarnya by Yuna

Oh bulan
Enggan melayan diriku lagi
Pabila
Air mata membasahi pipi
Dan lagu-lagu di radio
Seolah olah memerli aku
Pabila
Kau bersama yang lain

(Chorus)

Adakah perasaan benci ini
Sebenarnya cinta
Yang masih
Bersemadi untukmu
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
Disebalik senyumanmu itu
Kau juga
Merindui aku

Ku enggan
Berpura-pura ku bahagia
Ku enggan
Melihat kau bersama si dia
Oh ku akui cemburu
Mula menular dalam diri
Pabila
Kau bersama yang lain

(ulang chorus)

Pabila kau merenung matanya
Ku rebah
Jatuh ke bumi
Disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
Seperti ku bernafas dalam air

(ulang chorus)

Dan sebenarnya
Dan sebenarnya
Aku rindu
Dan sebenarnya
Dan sebenarnya
Aku tak mampu

Tanpa mu....
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Oh, Sizuka! by PopShuvit

INTRO

Tiada yang umpama kasih yang pertama
Ku luaskan indera merangkul adinda
Tiada yang sejati tiada yang seindah
Kasihmu ku bawa ke mana saja

VERSE

Di langit bumi kota Nagoya
Berputik cinta ku semula
Sekian lama ku kecewa
Hadirmu bagai lentera

Hampir layu ku separuh mati
Di belai ku kasihmu bersemi
Kau suntikku lalu kau bisik

Mata terpejamku celik
Semangat berputik
Kerna kau tak peduli
Trimaku sepenuh hati

Mata terpejamku celik
Semangat berputik
Kerana kau beri Mentari
Kembali Percaya diri

CHORUS

Oh Sizuka
Ku tunggumu
Na……
Oh Sizuka
Ku tunggu panggilanmu

VERSE

Oh sizuka konichiwa
Apa Khabarmu
Oh sizuka ku tak lupa
Ingatkah kamu
Oh sizuka Bila waktu
Lamaku tunggu
Oh sizuka Ku tunggu panggilanmu

OUTRO

Aishiteru sayang Sizuka
(Tunggu ku di sana)
Kisu shite mo-ii Sizuka
(selamanya)
Itsumo suki-dayo Sizuka
(Kita kan bersama)
Aishiteru sayang Sizuka
(Ke akhirnya)

I'm Back in the Game....

After exactly 4 years of not touching the basketball.... i did it.... Man!! did it feel good, reminds me so much of the gang back in old town Ipoh when basketball was the craze... i mean, we could just get to the court, the earlier the better... warm up a little and then "game on"... we played till we couldnt see the hoop anymore.. what a time... i missed that a lot.. Anyway, today's the 4th day i went to shoot hoops... but like tak puas.. time so short coz had to rush back before the azan..sigh... it quite a hold-back when you have to be considerate.. its like time its so limited.. besides that, today..woei chun & his friend vincent came to join us at the last minute.. didnt do much, just shoot hoops... we did manage to get a conversation going though... :)

A Sudden Attack of The Mind....

Exam is in a weeks time... Why must i recall everything done to hurt me at this time?? Shouldn't i be at least focused on my revision?? Dont ask me not to think too much isnt going to be a solution.... i know its there... Here's the thing, in the past 4 years with him, there were some moments of our arguements some harsh things were said... it hurt bad... i dont know whether i've totally forgotten about it... but must it pop up and show its ugly face at me at this present time?? argh.. everything seem so jumbled up now...i'm living in a box... In the corners of my mind, all i can question is, what am i fighting for?? am i still able to fight for love? to go on persevering and taking every single blow...

Gomenasai... thousand apologies....

Hey ppl....

Millions of apologies... i do admit i kinda suck as a blogger... maybe that's one of the other reasons why i have emotional stress sometimes... bottled up feelings... unable to speak out what i feel... besides that, guilt for not updating my closest friends on my life... Anyway, in conclusion.... i have to be back in business now.. Cheers to blogging.. :)

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