Rain Drops on My Window....

Rain drops gently on my window....
Pitter...Patter.... goes its rhythm.....soothing and yet...uncertain....
Rain drops gently on my window....
Steadily... like the tears trickling down my heart...
As it flows over the open wounds that so painfully appear....
Rain drops gently on my window....
Slowly washing illusions of you that have stained my soul...
Leaving watermarks of emotions and memories.....both bitter and sweet....
Sweetness of euphoria...
Bitterness of gall....
Rain drops gently on my window....
May the aftermath bring beauty and clarity....
With the floral freshness and clear skies....

Patch Up My Broken Heart.... Please....

Love is a beautiful feeling... but it hurts like nuts too....

3 and a half year just flew past me in a blink of an eye... It ended 2 days ago.... I still cant believe its over.... Why?...Why?... Why?.... It started off perfect...it seems that we were going to be together forever...  But everything fell apart... I know still love him... but i have to let him go... The song 'Taking Back My Love' by Enrique Iglesias and Ciara is ringing over and over again.... But my heart...is ripping apart... I woke up this morning, the 3rd morning after the break up.. all i can think of is him.... i see him everywhere... in my head... in the mirror... even in the songs playing on the radio...  I just wish i could forward time... just a bit faster... at least it would clear my head... At least the pain would decrease.... God I need u here with me now... i'm so empty.... life seems like its ticking away with no meaning.... My head tells me what i know i must do... but my heart is radiating the memories of the past....memories that i'd always cherish... if only... if only... But destiny is yet to be written.... my life is at a crossroad where i need to make the right decision now... i want time... i want space... at least it would give my heart a rest to heal from the wounds and sores.... 

Family Day... part I

I've never regretted getting into the car with my sis and parents to K.L.... It was loads of gila babi fun.... My mum was getting her annual check up in K.L General Hospital... 50/50 decision of whether to follow or not... K.L... sigh... the thought of it was like... congesting my brain... i imagine the amount of people, pollution, shopping (with an empty pocket)... gosh, that sucks... My elder sister, is one hell of a woman... cant believe she actually got leave last minute...for the sake of joining us on our gallavanting riot in K.L... Before the actual event of the day, my dad dropped my mum off at the hospital while we (dad, anna, grandma and me) went to get some other errants done... Shit!! cant believe that people just cant be punctual... come on, waiting for the office to be open took us a visit to Ampang's TESCO and 45 minutes of waiting... hah!! not to mention, having my dad signatured with beautiful bird droppings while waiting... Imagine this... driving around K.L city with a shit-smeared brand new Nissan, Grand Livina...isnt cool... Anyway, after the long and dreadful wait... we went to pick up my mum and elder sister....headed to the fruit market.... We loaded up on all the local delicacies... mangosteens, mangoes, lychees, langsat and salak.... it was like in a fruit heaven... The rest of the day was spent in Pavillion... Lepak... makan... window shop...lepak and makan.... thats all we did...We had a Japanese Lunch... who whould have thought that my parents and grandma would actually agree to that...but it was a surprise that day.... but it was great to be with my two sisters... the crazy three... i think we did drive our parent a little nuts... with all the jokes and not to mention nonsense talk... i didnt even think that my mum would want to have anything to do with our little chitter-chatter.... hah!! to my surprise... my mum simply joined in... adding a little nonsense of her own.... Dad was also in the game... My grandma is seriously the best grandma ever... Sporting and versatile... come on... she jokes...laughs along with us when we're at our nonsense... and she drank a cup of Coffee Bean coffee... how cooler can that get? Anyway, my dad bought a new camera... thanks to Anna for sweet talking with the sales guy... we got it for a good price...inclusive of a few door gifts... honestly, i thought that the sales guy was pretty cute... at first i thought he was Chinese... but in fact... he was Malay... hahaha... Luckily, i didnt think of speaking mandrin to him... what a loser i'd be... tsk...tsk.... We went shop after shop...level after level... then it came to the end of the lepak session...and time to head home.... it was indeed a great family day... I knew my dad would be a K.O case... so i drove us home.... loved it... :)

Pet Lover??

Growing up as a child... i did have my fair share of chances keeping pets... from chicks to rabbits and fishes.... but it sort off tagged off as i went through my teenage life... Funny as it seem to be, my mum just had this thing for hamsters... we had one when i was in Standard 5 but it lived only a year... Hamsters are just adorable little things.. just as long as they don't have the habit of nibbling on your fingers... *ouch.... Now, i'm into dogs.... i cant help but sigh in adoration when i see that cute little puppy or dog... i would say i prefer dogs to cats... minus the drool and all but, they just lovely little creatures... i cant keep one now, coz my dad i allergic to fur.... wont want him to sneeze the house down right.... tsk..tsk... just cant wait to have one of my own... practicing on facebook doesnt give me the real kick... oh well, just have to wait and see....

The Ride Home.....

My journey home from Ipoh wasnt a very pleasant one...
The bus took an extra long route and it was raining cats and dogs passing the Nilai highway.... Air-con wasnt really cooling me off either.... the feeling of missing and home jumbled up inside me...To much to handle, all at once... That didnt stop there... the time of arrival was an hour later than usual.... In addition to that, i bumped my head while getting off the bus... and had quite a bloody accident while trying to get my luggage from d cabin below... i hit my lips on the side of the cabin door... the taste of blood was unrecognizable...but i knew if just wounded myself... stranger eyes follow me as i made my way clumsily towards the waiting area... sky still drizzling... my heart was screaming in pain and annoyance...hoping for my transport to arrive soon.... in the mean time... fumbling around in my bag for a pack of tissue paper to stop the bleeding.... First a look to the right... and then another to the left... and then to the right again.... It was then, i spotted a small red car heading in my direction.... with a sigh of relief... i hurried myself towards the stopping vehicle...got in... and awaited the moment of arrival home.....